I should begin with an apology. Jen's passing tossed me for a loop. See, I had it all figured, she was dieing, so I was grieving along the way, and when it was over it would be time to move on.
Life's full of surprises, and my 'practical pete" approach, which seemed logical at the time failed miserably at her passing.
As the rooms began to close in plan B was not to be found and the only peace i saw was in the bottom of a rum n coke. If my friends could see me now. I sat alone in the big ole room , The same room I'd lived in for the last three years changing her meds ,living her pain and watching her die one day at a time. There was nowhere to go, this was home. but the quiet was deafening. 60's music cranked to the max barely covered the sounds of her crying, and a thousand bad memories pressed in to remind me of the many times i failed to ease her suffering.
The beer went down easy, just taking the edge away. but the demons would leave as the rum kicked in. And soon the room would become much smaller . what was once a heavy load would soon meld into a fuzzy gray numbness that required much less thought. Once that point was reached the music sounded better and even my voice blended perfectly as i crooned away into the night. But we all know those kinda hid-a-ways only work while your drinking, so every morning brought the battle back in full force. After a few days of that and memories of a drunken father, it became very clear that this was a solution that needed a better solution. So I shook it off and began to deal with life in smaller increments.
If you've read some of my stuff you know the purpose of this Blog. So to watch my wife succumb to the poisons of treatment was a very painful and frustrating time. Death and dieing are very personal. And each person needs to be honored by their choices. Everything I've learned, every part of my being tells me Jenny didn't need to die. But I watched the poison go into her body every week for years and had a ringside seat to its effect on her "treatment".
So, I'm back, with apologies to all. another chapter to life has begun as I attempt to file away memories and a lifetime. The grieving for the most part now behind me. And God has provided new direction Life itself now has taken on new value as I've witness its fragility. Each new day now a blessing from the Master and a gift I will not take for granted. I chose to look at this day and see what God has provided for me, and make it count. and Tomorrow,, He has a plan for that too. Gods very best A.L.R.
Showing posts with label sickness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sickness. Show all posts
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Swine Flu Scare,, Is it really over?
The news has been literally plastered with information and articles about the last Swine Flu Scare. And you need not go very far to find yet another comment or opinion on its progress. It seems folks are reaching for the promise that they can go ahead with life in general with no threat of sickness. One of the advantages of living a Christian life is it keeps a perspective on Our time here on Earth. So my reaching might be a bit shorter than some. But at least realistic.
I watched the Cancer clinic doors swing in and out for many years as my wife endured pain and sickness in her struggle to be free of cancer. And in all that time I saw very few who won the battle. That, in a nutshell is the reason for this Blog. Fighting cancer, or any other disease should not be left to a drastic and many time futile attempt to arrest a disease that has a choke hold on your life. Lets nail this down once and for all. The numbers are in!! There is a much greater chance that you will deal with cancer sometime in your life now , than there is a chance you will be able to avoid it. OWN IT, Its TRUE. BUT!!~!
The upside is very encouraging. IT has now been established that the cause of our diminishing health is due to our Diet and lifestyle. That may not be what you want to hear, but this lays the tools of battle right in your lap.
So, the issue of health now becomes an issue of choice. TODAY, you have a much better chance to avoid disease, if you'll make some good decisions. And it can begin as simply as beginning to adjust your diet. I've provided much information on this Blog to get you started on a road to better health, but you need to begin taking those steps, I've convinced myself that my bladder cancer, from 6 years ago, is kept in check by addressing my health issues through exercise and diet. By letting my immune system do my fighting while I feed it well. You can do the same.
Buy building your immune system your guarding against swine flu, cancer and every other disease known to man and those we don't know about as well. But setting there , waiting for someone to create a vaccine, hoping someone else will help you dispel the fear makes no sense.
YOU have the responsibility for your health. And You have options. Today is the day to start addressing your needs.
The number of your days here on earth have already been establish By the King Of Kings. And How comforting to me that Even Cancer has to bow its knee to HE who created life. Disease, in many cases shortens that time needlessly. The day to begin your fight is today A. L. R.
I watched the Cancer clinic doors swing in and out for many years as my wife endured pain and sickness in her struggle to be free of cancer. And in all that time I saw very few who won the battle. That, in a nutshell is the reason for this Blog. Fighting cancer, or any other disease should not be left to a drastic and many time futile attempt to arrest a disease that has a choke hold on your life. Lets nail this down once and for all. The numbers are in!! There is a much greater chance that you will deal with cancer sometime in your life now , than there is a chance you will be able to avoid it. OWN IT, Its TRUE. BUT!!~!
The upside is very encouraging. IT has now been established that the cause of our diminishing health is due to our Diet and lifestyle. That may not be what you want to hear, but this lays the tools of battle right in your lap.
So, the issue of health now becomes an issue of choice. TODAY, you have a much better chance to avoid disease, if you'll make some good decisions. And it can begin as simply as beginning to adjust your diet. I've provided much information on this Blog to get you started on a road to better health, but you need to begin taking those steps, I've convinced myself that my bladder cancer, from 6 years ago, is kept in check by addressing my health issues through exercise and diet. By letting my immune system do my fighting while I feed it well. You can do the same.
Buy building your immune system your guarding against swine flu, cancer and every other disease known to man and those we don't know about as well. But setting there , waiting for someone to create a vaccine, hoping someone else will help you dispel the fear makes no sense.
YOU have the responsibility for your health. And You have options. Today is the day to start addressing your needs.
The number of your days here on earth have already been establish By the King Of Kings. And How comforting to me that Even Cancer has to bow its knee to HE who created life. Disease, in many cases shortens that time needlessly. The day to begin your fight is today A. L. R.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
THE NEW STATE RELIGEON
THE NEW STATE RELIGION
Every tyranny requires its very own state religion so the rulers can feel justified in their oppression. In our case, the religion is Health.
Today in North America, Healthism enjoys almost total acceptance. Who doesn't want to be healthy? Who doesn't think that sick people should be cured? Conservatives and liberals alike vie to get the other side declared "sick" instead of slugging it out fairly on the grounds of right and wrong. Literally anything can be justified as "healthy," literally any crime can be forgiven as "sick."
We are heading towards exactly the same social structure as (the former) Soviet Russia: A piggish elite ruling over the servile masses. All this can be accomplished without ever invoking the names of Marx or Lenin. All we need is a good enough reason to believe in the omniscience of the elite, and a willingness to let them make the decisions--"for our own good," of course. And, just to ensure our compliance, we will be suffocated with tax-supported bureaucracies, and be surrounded by anonymous accusers.
Under the law of Health, all of life becomes politicized. The most powerful person simply declares his/her personal prejudices to be society's new norms, and that is that. We all must conform. We are even denied the dignity of resisting our oppressors, because they are supposedly tyrannizing us out of love, for our own good . . . .
Whoever can ascend the pedestal of Health controls everything, and there is no way to predict what he or she will demand. Nor is there any theoretical limit on what can be demanded in the name of Health. In the former Soviet Union, dissenters were tortured in psychiatric hospitals in the name of Health. In Nazi Germany dissenters were castrated so as not to bear "unfit" children, and Jews and gypsies were massacred to "purify the race." Nobody can justify Stalin's or Hitler's behavior by any traditional standard of justice, but they both found it easy to persuade a majority of the population that these measures were necessary for "social health" .
LIFE BEFORE "HEALTH" In North America, we have no cultural tradition of oppression as existed for centuries in Czarist Russia. Nor have we suffered the economic devastation that flattened the Weimar Republic and paved the way for Hitler. From its very beginning North America was founded, not perfectly but substantially, on absolute standards of Justice. To consider a return to these absolute standards is not some fanatical theory, but an option that can be weighed against the historical facts.
SOME QUESTIONS:1. Was there more juvenile delinquency and child abuse or less before the "child abuse industry" (Child Protective Services, etc.) was established?
2. Was there more sexual abuse, or less, before the new campaign of sex education and "helping professionals" ?
3. Were we overrun with murderers, rapists, and child molesters before the courts started trying to "rehabilitate" these kinds of criminals?
4. Did half of all marriages end in divorce before we decided that marriage vows were an empty joke instead of a binding contract with penalties for those who broke them?
5. Did children grow up illiterate before God was banned from the classroom and the schools began undermining children's values?
6. Was a large percentage of the population chronically unemployable, with no real prospect for their children but poverty, before we formed an army of bureaucrats (wrongly called the Great Society) and declared a War on Poverty?
The answers: No, no, no, no, no, NO! Juvenile delinquency is up 11,000 percent since 1950 (1). Incest was estimated at one in a million or less in 1940 (2). Murder, rape and other violent crimes were a tiny fraction of today's numbers before the religion of Health replaced the Justice of Law. Child molesting was almost unheard of. Few couples divorced, and few children had to suffer through this major childhood trauma. Literacy was at the 99% rate in 1910 (3). Immigrants at that time, uneducated and totally poverty-stricken (far below our current standard of "poverty level" ) saw their children become educated, wealthy and successful.
WHAT CHANGED?The difference is that we used to be governed by law based on unchanging absolutes. Today we are governed by the dictates of special interests and the fads of the elite. No security or progress is possible while our laws oscillate madly this way and that. All that the child abuse industry and our related social change agencies have accomplished with their faddish programs is to make us a contender for crime capital of the world. Our old standard of "justice for all" instead of "Health for all" is simple and time-tested. It requires no elaborate, self-interested bureaucracy.
Most of all, it is fair and just.
_________________References:(1). The Stealing of America, John Whitehead, Crossway Books, Wheaton, IL, 1983, p. 68.(2). Incest is Most Common Form of Child Sexual Abuse, Becky R. Gilmore, Nevada (MO) Daily Mail, June 27, 1985.(3). Statistical Abstract of the United States, U.S. Bureau of the Census, Washington, D.C., 1983, p. 60.
This brochure is compiled from pages 128-130 of Child Abuse Industry, by Mary Pride, published by Crossway Books. (Crossway Books is a division of Good News Publishers, Wheaton, IL 60187.)
To learn more about our growing loss of freedom, and creeping socialism in America today, order The Child Abuse Industry from Good News Publishers at 1-800-323-3890.
Every tyranny requires its very own state religion so the rulers can feel justified in their oppression. In our case, the religion is Health.
Today in North America, Healthism enjoys almost total acceptance. Who doesn't want to be healthy? Who doesn't think that sick people should be cured? Conservatives and liberals alike vie to get the other side declared "sick" instead of slugging it out fairly on the grounds of right and wrong. Literally anything can be justified as "healthy," literally any crime can be forgiven as "sick."
We are heading towards exactly the same social structure as (the former) Soviet Russia: A piggish elite ruling over the servile masses. All this can be accomplished without ever invoking the names of Marx or Lenin. All we need is a good enough reason to believe in the omniscience of the elite, and a willingness to let them make the decisions--"for our own good," of course. And, just to ensure our compliance, we will be suffocated with tax-supported bureaucracies, and be surrounded by anonymous accusers.
Under the law of Health, all of life becomes politicized. The most powerful person simply declares his/her personal prejudices to be society's new norms, and that is that. We all must conform. We are even denied the dignity of resisting our oppressors, because they are supposedly tyrannizing us out of love, for our own good . . . .
Whoever can ascend the pedestal of Health controls everything, and there is no way to predict what he or she will demand. Nor is there any theoretical limit on what can be demanded in the name of Health. In the former Soviet Union, dissenters were tortured in psychiatric hospitals in the name of Health. In Nazi Germany dissenters were castrated so as not to bear "unfit" children, and Jews and gypsies were massacred to "purify the race." Nobody can justify Stalin's or Hitler's behavior by any traditional standard of justice, but they both found it easy to persuade a majority of the population that these measures were necessary for "social health" .
LIFE BEFORE "HEALTH" In North America, we have no cultural tradition of oppression as existed for centuries in Czarist Russia. Nor have we suffered the economic devastation that flattened the Weimar Republic and paved the way for Hitler. From its very beginning North America was founded, not perfectly but substantially, on absolute standards of Justice. To consider a return to these absolute standards is not some fanatical theory, but an option that can be weighed against the historical facts.
SOME QUESTIONS:1. Was there more juvenile delinquency and child abuse or less before the "child abuse industry" (Child Protective Services, etc.) was established?
2. Was there more sexual abuse, or less, before the new campaign of sex education and "helping professionals" ?
3. Were we overrun with murderers, rapists, and child molesters before the courts started trying to "rehabilitate" these kinds of criminals?
4. Did half of all marriages end in divorce before we decided that marriage vows were an empty joke instead of a binding contract with penalties for those who broke them?
5. Did children grow up illiterate before God was banned from the classroom and the schools began undermining children's values?
6. Was a large percentage of the population chronically unemployable, with no real prospect for their children but poverty, before we formed an army of bureaucrats (wrongly called the Great Society) and declared a War on Poverty?
The answers: No, no, no, no, no, NO! Juvenile delinquency is up 11,000 percent since 1950 (1). Incest was estimated at one in a million or less in 1940 (2). Murder, rape and other violent crimes were a tiny fraction of today's numbers before the religion of Health replaced the Justice of Law. Child molesting was almost unheard of. Few couples divorced, and few children had to suffer through this major childhood trauma. Literacy was at the 99% rate in 1910 (3). Immigrants at that time, uneducated and totally poverty-stricken (far below our current standard of "poverty level" ) saw their children become educated, wealthy and successful.
WHAT CHANGED?The difference is that we used to be governed by law based on unchanging absolutes. Today we are governed by the dictates of special interests and the fads of the elite. No security or progress is possible while our laws oscillate madly this way and that. All that the child abuse industry and our related social change agencies have accomplished with their faddish programs is to make us a contender for crime capital of the world. Our old standard of "justice for all" instead of "Health for all" is simple and time-tested. It requires no elaborate, self-interested bureaucracy.
Most of all, it is fair and just.
_________________References:(1). The Stealing of America, John Whitehead, Crossway Books, Wheaton, IL, 1983, p. 68.(2). Incest is Most Common Form of Child Sexual Abuse, Becky R. Gilmore, Nevada (MO) Daily Mail, June 27, 1985.(3). Statistical Abstract of the United States, U.S. Bureau of the Census, Washington, D.C., 1983, p. 60.
This brochure is compiled from pages 128-130 of Child Abuse Industry, by Mary Pride, published by Crossway Books. (Crossway Books is a division of Good News Publishers, Wheaton, IL 60187.)
To learn more about our growing loss of freedom, and creeping socialism in America today, order The Child Abuse Industry from Good News Publishers at 1-800-323-3890.
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